First of all, I am highly jealous of the girl who writes the blog. Her unique tastes in fashion, music, and art give her something to write about, whereas I sit on the floor of my too-small room, looking around aimlessly, desperately searching for something unique in my life.
I'm going to Germany in a week. I'm really looking forward to blogging about that.
Anyway, this video that I came across, it was of an artist, Steven Lopez, from Pasadena, California, painting one of his original paintings from a project called The After Midnight Series, a series of paintings that pay homage to Neo-soul songstresses.
I don't know why I was so drawn to this painting montage, but once again, I was hit with an urge to spontaneously make something creative. I see a brilliant photograph by a brilliant photographer, and I want to take up photography. I see a great movie, and I want to be a director. Right now. Get me some actors.
I actually have a manila folder under my bed with sketches and rough drafts of short movies I would like to make some time in the future.
If I could, I would simultaneously act, dance, sing, direct, photograph, blog, film, document, paint something, while touring France, Ghana, South America, Prague, London, Australia all at the same time. Goddamn, if they had only perfected the cloning process for the masses.
Oh, and Germany I suppose. Since that's actually happening.
People always say to find the one thing you enjoy and desire to do life, and pursue it. I've realized, however, that it is never one thing. It will always be multiple things. Even if I do succeed at one of the bazillion dreams listed above, what happens to everything else? I can't just let go and not do them.
For the fall semester of my sophomore year in college, I decided to take a modern dance class, to fill up credits. I've always thought it be so cool to be a dancer. Suddenly I imagine myself as a dance major, going to rehearsals, performing in front of a large audience, being able to do such flexible things I could never dream of doing.
What the hell, man? I am never going to be a dancer. It's not that easy.
It's not that people don't pursue multiple dreams. It's just that sometimes, half of those dreams turn into hobbies, something that is done on the side, and don't go any farther than that.
But I don't want that.
I want to be able to excel at every single one of my dreams, to the point where people can't even identify my job.
"Oh, that's Esha, she's a...everything."
You know, if I weren't so creatively inclined, I would also like to become a doctor. It seems so exciting. But because I know I'll never be able to sit through multiple Chemistry and Biology classes, I resort to watching medical shows like House and Royal Pains.
Oh my god, this has to stop. This is turning into a weird version of my Christmas wish list.
But I have to say, Hinduism's got it down. Goddesses with multiple arms? I could use that. And multiple brains. And everything else.
Hi! I have NO idea how I found this to be honest lol but I am so glad I did :) THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR FEATURING MY BLOG IN YOUR POST! You are too sweet and it warms my heart and makes me so happy that people are actually reading what I have to say and appreciate my point of view on things :) And trust me...my life isn't so 'interesting' right now but it's all about being yourself & sharing your passions, desires, hopes, & dreams with the world which is exactly what you are doing here! I enjoyed reading this and I think it's awesome that you want to do so many things and all I can say is GO FOR IT! There is this cheesy saying that people use when trying to tell people to chase their dreams, you've most likely heard it already lol..."aim for the moon because even if you miss you'll land amongst the stars" lol even though this is so cliche, it's true! especially with people like you and i who want to do everything at once! we should choose feasible goals and concentrate on accomplishing them to the best of our ability, but even if we don't will we gain something in the process! so go ahead and learn how to dance! even if it doesn't work out, at least you got a workout in the process :) lol. And you go to NYU which means you live in or at least very very close to NYC so what the heck do you mean you have nothing of interest around you?! All you have to do is go outside, walk around the city and start snapping photos!!! Go to a thrift store and see what treasures you find! NY has some of the best thrift stores I've ever been to in my life! Go to a restaurant and order something crazy you've never eaten and take pictures of it and post them on here and tell the world what it tasted like and whether you liked it! As long as it's important to you and it makes YOU happy then it is interesting :) And what makes blogging so rewarding is when people agree with the things you have to say! Sorry, this is kind of long...I have a tendency for going off on tangents -__- lol but I look forward to seeing many many many beautiful posts after you come back from Germany!!!
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OMG I LOVE YOU HAHA especially the ending
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